It's getting ugly in here...

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...mentally speaking.

My anxiety and depression are back, and worse than ever.  Yesterday was...bad.  Like, 'mom is thinking of taking me to the psych ward at our local hospital' bad.  I'm seriously thanking God for SkinnerCentauri, Serbearus, AddictedToZipperz, and MasterOfUnlocking.  The first three were physically there for me, doing everything they could to keep me happy.  And Hitori - our talk on the phone, though short, was wonderful.  It took such a weight from my shoulders, knowing that my friends and family were there for me.

I woke up feeling rather numb and unemotional today, which is a pleasant change from miserable, but still not good.  I'm doing everything I can to keep calm and distracted, but every now and then, I still get horrible chest pains and I almost pass out.  Very unpleasant, and not very helpful in the creativity department.  But, on a more positive note, I finished inking a picture for that poster contest I'm still holding ( chubby-choco.deviantart.com/jo… ), and Skinner wanted to steal it.    This is a good sign; I am not completely roadblocked in terms of my art.

Anyway.  Just keeping you updated.  Pray for me, please; if you don't pray, I will gratefully accept heartfelt well-wishes from those of any orientation, persuasion, or belief system.